Well Dad it is hard to believe you have been gone now for 6 years.  When did the world forget you were my world.  So many times in live since you left I have smelled something that reminded me of you, heard a sound like the rumble of a diesel that has made me turn my head just in case it was you, or saw a gentleman using an electric cart at Wal-mart that from the back makes my breath catch in my chest and stop dead in my tracks.  I still search for you.....  I still miss you like crazy.  I still hold you so close to my heart that if you are ridding shotgun on my shoulder as my angel I am pretty sure you are being smothered and losing lack of air for holding you so close.  I have wished so hard many days you were back with me that not for lack of trying you are still gone.  I have wondered what you would think of me yelling at your grandson's games or wrestling matches.  To see how proud you would be of them and all they have accomplished.  Tyler has your strength from all the stories I have heard about you.  He broke the league record for Shot-Put in Middle school.  We are figuring he will break the High School record before long.  I imagine you have been with him this whole time and been close to him.  I could not imagine a better angel for him and Trent.  But you are going to get your work out with Trent.  He looks so much like you when you were younger.  I mean a spitting image.  He has the dimples and the same twinkle you have.  He is also from what stories I have heard is ALOT like you with being a pistol.  They learned so much from you when you were here and even now when I pass someplace you took one of them they still tell me "Hey Mom Pappa use to take us there." 

Mom always tells me "God did not take your Dad a moment to soon.  He took you at the right time."  I was wondering why I never got a vote.....   I know you got me to where I was when you left.  You had a hand in listening to my drama and helping me.  I miss our rides to town Dad.  You know where we would just chatter on about really nothing.  I miss you phone calls.  I miss just hearing you call me punkey.  I miss just being able to talk to you and get your advise.  I get jealous of older couple in their 70 and 80's who get to walk around together and I think why didn't my parents get that.  I never miss a chance to tell someone that is upset with their Dad to forgive and forget as once they are gone then they are gone and you never get them back to say I am sorry.  I never miss a chance to smile when I see a Pappa with his Grand kids.  But most of all I just MISS YOU....  I hear people talk about having the best Dad but I could not have made it without you.  You and Mom helped me raise 2 amazing boys.  You gave me the strong will to push on when I wanted to give up and run back.  I often wonder about what you would think of different things and wonder if your personality shows thru in your kids. 

Dad if I could ask for one thing it would be to have you back but then I would be selfish.....  You were in pain more then we knew.  The other day Jay ran into someone that knew you.  As Jay was telling me the stories I started to cry....  Maybe for missing you but also for some many people knew you and you gave them stories to tell.  I always heard what a strong man you were.  That I believe from your large hands to your deep voice.  From your laugh to telling us "you never start a fight but you never back down."  For this I Thank God and You.  I Thank God for giving me the chance to call you my Dad and to have been able to have you as long as I did.  I want to Thank you for being my Dad and the best.  For also being the best Grandpa the kids could ask for.  Both the boys love the lawn mower.....  Huh I wonder where they got that from Dad.  For giving me my love of animals but I am pretty sure Jay is really not happy about that.  For giving me the ground work to know that I will make mistakes and to move forward from them and to not let anything hold me back.  For that I could not be more grateful for.  Not a day goes by I still do not think of you.  Time has help me adjust to what life I have been given and I know someday I will see you again.  But until then please keep watch over our family.....  You have the best seat in the house.